Hello, hello! Welcome back for another jolly good time! 🤣😂
So, I actually did a quick vlog clip (ha! Quick!) about what it is like to be different. And so, I am reversing the process and writing a blog post about it.
Let me start by saying, I just don’t feel what everybody else feels. I just feel like an alien on this planet. Like I don’t fit or belong, especially the older I get. I feel disconnected from everything and everyone.
Nothing to me makes sense anymore.
So, please take a journey with me on how I am different than others.
Boys are supposed to be with Girls Bullshit
The first time I KNEW I was different was when I realized I liked boys more than girls. I was TOLD that it was boys and girls together as a romantic whatever. I watched it on TV and in the movies. Men and women together in their everlasting love. BLECH! But when it came down to “playing house,” I wanted to play with the boys instead of the girls. And I did. And I also didn’t feel like a boy. I felt more like a girl! See my girl, girl, girl post below:
Now, please click on the video clip “I’m a Girl! Girl! Girl!” from my new YouTube Channel – The Queen of Mayfair!! Enjoy!
RELIGION!!!
Okay, get ready – I guess I’m “going to hell” on this one. 😂 But my next instance as a child where I knew I was different was with regards to religion. Even then, I felt it was stupid for people to be fawning and falling all over some entity you couldn’t see. And getting worked up if you didn’t follow said entity, ESPECIALLY when you read said entity’s “good book,” i.e. the Bible, and some of the dreadful things in it. I’m sorry why would ANYBODY want to follow somebody like that? I found it downright scary, particularly when I read some of Revelations as a child. My goodness!!! But even then there was a tiny part of me that felt this wasn’t right. I guess we shall see. 😉
Ye Olde Sports
Oh then there’s the sports. I have NEVER liked or cared about sports. Oh don’t get me wrong. I have had my moments. For example, I watched wrestling RELIGIOUSLY because of the HOT men! And their tights!! LOL I got a little bit into baseball for the same reason, those sexy men in their tight uniforms. And football maybe the same. But it was the Carolina basketball that I really got into. And yes, even the track-and-field type stuff on Sundays, especially with the celebrities from different networks competing against one another to see who was the fastest and the fittest. Those were a lot of fun.
But sports in general, I just never understood the appeal. I realized this particularly the older I got. And being besties with Charles back then in school, I felt I had to “pretend” to like sports in order to be liked. Then I grew older and realized I don’t have to pretend to like this shit if I really don’t. And even most recently during a training session on Zoom, when I voiced this, a hetero male acted as though I was green and my head turned around! LOL
Allow me to elaborate on a specific sports example from my adulthood, which DEFINITELY proved my disdain for sports. Right before the pandemic, a couple of friends took me to one of these United Atlanta soccer games. It was VERY crowded, of course, (in my best Southern accent) cuz round these parts, it is quite popular. It wasn’t so much the crowds, but all of the cheerleading. From the fans!!! They had these silly songs and rituals and the worst part, whenever they scored a goal – (is that what you call it? a goal?) – everyone next to each other would grab you by the waist and chant some ridiculous chant and rock back and forth!!! It was GROSS! I do NOT like strangers fucking touching me!!! My friends explained this was part of the ritual. As a matter of fact, this dude near us got mad at someone who refused to participate!! INSANITY!! I NEVER went back!!!
Gotta Pay Them Taxes!!
And taxes. Everybody but everybody is so scared of the IRS. I’m not. Fuck them! This is OUR MONEY! They didn’t work for it; WE DID! When I owe, I just call them up and say I can’t pay, and I end up on some sort of a payment plan. People have been socialized into this bullshit where they get a refund at the end of the year not realizing that it is actually YOUR MONEY TO BEGIN WITH! I mean give me a break!
“Reality” TV – Reality. Yeah. Right.
Reality TV is another one. It is total and complete trash, yet people fall all over themselves to watch that garbage. One of my former roommates was into The Biggest Loser, you know, that show where the fat ass who loses the most weight wins a $200,000 prize. And I said to myself ‘so we are going to award you 200 grand for losing weight that you either shouldn’t have put on in the first place or that you should be able to lose without some sort of monetary prize as motivation for doing so!!’
And don’t even get me started on the real housewives franchise. Let’s just say I am not a fan of Andy Cohen…
Open Relationships
Now, I really don’t care what str8 people do in their relationships. But gay men engaging in open relationships, though that is of course your choice, I have always found a bit odd. I have always wondered why get involved with someone if you know you are not going to be physically intimate with them or true to them in that fashion? And there have been so many excuses, such as my personal favorite – men are NOT capable of fidelity. Bitch! Speak for yourself! Don’t hand me that. If you can commit to your dog or cat, your job, your responsibilities, you CAN commit to one person! And why not just stay single? Sounds to me like someone wants it all. I shall refrain from the old saying having your cake and eating it, too, because cake after all is meant to be eaten! 🎂🍰
The Latest Foolishness
Tik Tok. I call it Ticky Tacky. And all of the unsolicited videos I am constantly receiving from everybody, whether it is through Messenger on Facebook or in my text messages (thankfully not email!) I don’t do that to anybody. I do not flood people’s inboxes with such foolishness, and I don’t understand why people do that. But maybe I should, now that I have my own YouTube channel. 🤔🤔
And further foolishness – anything the Internet or social media grabs a hold of and won’t let go. The dumbest of the dumb shit that ends up getting plastered all over Facebook, et al. I think the latest now is the whole jeans/genes thing. I think I remember some chick named Sydney Sweeney (that her name?) who made a controversial statement saying she had the best GENES or something along those lines, while wearing Calvins. And that she, I think, is MAGA??? Who cares? To quote Mariah Carey, “I don’t know her.” I am just not into all of that mess, and now Facebook, et al, is all up in arms. Showing different memes of different actors/personalities/people wearing blue jeans. And I’m shaking my head saying, this country is falling apart each and every day, and THIS is what you care about??? And again, no WONDER the country is falling apart at the seams each and every day.
And let’s not forget Wordle. I just don’t get it.
Update: Now it’s the Cracker Barrel logo!! 🤦♂️🤦🤦♀️
You’ve Got Me Feeling Emotions
The other thing is the emotions thing. So MANY “adults” all try to say just how chill they are. Or how grown up they are. And how blessed they are. Or how NOTHING affects them. Bullshit! I have made MANY said adults SO MAD! LOLOL But this whole don’t show emotions or don’t cry or be calm is such garbage, in my opinion. I am not saying you should get or be out of control if something bothers you. However, if something does bother you, I think you should express it! Holding all this in can lead to cancer, in my opinion. The whole “don’t cry out loud” thing is a great song, but I don’t think is healthy in real life.
TV
The TV shows. How many times have I been asked if I watch something or the other and I say I don’t, and people’s heads just spin around like in The Exorcist??? Or if I TRIED to watch something, and it completely turned me off? Take Will & Grace as an example, you know, THE supreme go-to of go-to gay shows. I mean, ALL the gays are supposed to love that show. Not me. Hated it!! I particularly could not stand the Karen character. She was HORRIBLE! Her voice, her meanness were absolutely IRRITATING! But especially that horrid voice! What really did it for me was when the bitch didn’t know who Hall & Oates were or James Earl Jones, or something along those lines. Basically, she dissed both of them. And I’m like little girl, you need to sit the fuck down. They will be remembered LONG after your ass is gone! I just never got the appeal of that show.
Musica!!
And now let’s talk music. Everybody but everybody LOVES Lady Gaga – or as I call her Lady Gagme. How many arguments have I gotten into over this chick that EVERYBODY says is so talented. I don’t see it. I really don’t. Sure. She puts the costumes on, and she can play the piano. But quite frankly, so can my dog. And I don’t even have a dog. Yet. Her music is NOISE to me! And I don’t know the name of that horrendous song where she goes Ga-ga-ga-la-la or whatever that warbling is (it’s the song where she sounds like she is saying “cutie pie”.) It truly hurts my ears. But all the gay men (and str8 people, too) think she is the greatest thing since sliced bread. They think she INVENTED music. She invented NOISE!
And trust me, there are other examples, like oh – I dunno – BEYONCE!! Because now she apparently has invented country music! 🤮
What is Derek into?
- Music and lots of great 70s, 80s and 90s club music.
- Astrology.
- Epic and vintage soap operas!
- Reading.
- Film and video editing.
- Bar hopping (at my age). 😂😉🍸🍹
- Being alone.
- I LOVE dogs!
- Screenwriting.
- Writing PERIOD. Hence, the blog.
I am going to end with it is nice to be different. I thrive on it! And if you think you’re different from the average Earth Thing, please let me know in the comments! We “aliens” RULE!! 😂😀
Thank you for allowing me to rant, yet again!! 😂 Stay tuned next time when I will be discussing the passing of soap stars and how that affects us.
So, until then, please be safe and mentally well!!
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